November 1 Thoughts

I used to think people could change people. But change does not just happen....it is only the will inside us that can drive us to change. Stop trying to wait for someone to save you....save yourself.

November 8 Thoughts

The future may be scary and the path unknown....But in each step you take I promise you will have grown.

10-19-10 Thoughts

As you get older you start to realize the truths of the world. You no longer are the little kid running around playing...with no cares and worries. You are the little kid living in the real world trying so hard to be a big kid. I think you lose sight of what fun is when you start to let the weight of the world push you down. We lose sight of our happiness when we take on all the responsibilities. Do you ever wake up and feel like it is a chore...like it is a struggle? Do you ever feel empty inside even when everything around you is a blessing...and Even when you have everything you need?

If you had the perfect job ...would you still be unhappy if you had to come home to an empty house everynight. If you had the one you loved would you still be unhappy if you had to work a miserable 9 to 5 job. Everyones view of the world is different and everyone's definition of happiness is different. People who have nothing would be happy with anything. But many people who have it all still are unfulfilled. Maybe if we just stopped to look at our lives and saw all we have in it....we would smile.

Why Do We Stay?

Why do people stay? Stay in relationships that are unhealthy...Stay at jobs that make us unhappy...Stay in our depression...Stay stuck in a life that we dont really love. The truth is that we fear the unknown. We know there is better out there but we are scared to take the journey to find it. We are content when we should be risky. We settle for safe when we should strive for spontaneous. We hold on when all we really want to do is let go. We try to change people instead of helping ourselves grow. We dream but never really take the leap. We complain but never fix. We settle rather than work harder. People need people, they need something to hold on to. So, Why Do People Stay? Because leaving means being alone. It means being lost. But I think so many of us are lost in our lives now. Having someone in the room with you doesnt keep you from being alone. Why are you staying? Especially when your heart is already gone...?

3-31-10 Life Is Unfair

So many times I have heard the words..."Life Is Not Fair". I myself have used that line quite a few times. But nothing can ever be fair. It is just a part of life. Something that is fair to you becomes unfair to someone else. Losing a close game seems so unfair but to the opposition the opposite holds true. Why do we focus so much on complaining about life being unfair? Instead we should be focusing on our lives and taking control of it. There are no excuses and there is no one to blame. Not even God. Why do we focus so much on blaming God when maybe we should be blaming ourselves? It may seem unfair that you didnt get the job postion you wanted or that your car broke down.....But is it fair that you can walk and he can't. Is it fair that you have a family and she does not? You may think its unfair that you can't seem to find the love of your life.....But is it fair that you are healthy and someone else is diseased. You may say its unfair that you can not bear children....But is it fair that hundreds of kids have no parents and yet you were lucky enough to get two. I may say it is not fair that girls can't make millions of dollars in pro sports like guys can. But it is fair that I got to wake up this morning and someone else didnt. It is fair that I was born in America while so many others were born into War. It is fair that I have shelter over my head and many children sleep in the streets. Is it fair that I have heard the word of God and yet millions don't know who Jesus Christ is. I have heard the words "Life Is Not Fair" So many times. But is it really unfair or do you only see with one view point. Maybe in the end Life is not so unfair after all. Maybe all of the unfair moments in your life are just God's way of saying....I know what is best for you. Look at your life and instead of complaining about the things that seem unfair. Maybe we should be thankful for the blessings we have....ones that so many would say are unfair.

March 21st

Take a deep breath....tilt your head back...look up to heaven cuz he is looking back.

2-11-10 Thoughts

Invest in people who will invest back. Give your heart to that one person who will give you theirs in return. Trust few people. But be nice to people and love them even if they dont always love you back....because one day....one day you will get through. Don't give up on people or yourself....because God hasn't

1/30/10 Thoughts

I never said I know what its like to be you. But I guarentee you dont know what its like in my shoes. So lets beg to differ, agree to disagree. Lets find some common ground in what we believe. I don't care what your labeled to be. I don't care what religion you seek. What's in a name but a cry to be unique. Deep down I think we all believe the same thing.

1-27-10 Thoughts

They say you can only count your true friends on one hand. Are you on someones top five list? If not I encourage you to reach out, love people, and be someone they can count on. I have learned that when you do that you end up with more than just a handful.

1-22-10 Thoughts

Dont let your eyes become blinded. Open them so you don't miss out on something great. Something new allows you to let go of that something old. And Someday there will be another to replace that something new. Chenge doesnt have to be a bad thing. It just takes us on another journey down a different path.

1/13/10 Thoughts

Perfection doesnt come overnight. But if everyday you are a little bit better than you were the day before, then eventually you will get there.

1/11/10 Thoughts

Love is a gift....One in which we can all give. Maybe we haven't found the love we have been looking for, but that shouldn't stop us from giving our love.

1-8-10 "Simple"

We live in a world that is so hard to understand. We are constantly looking for the truth, looking for the answer, looking for a sign, to fulfill this emptiness we have inside of us. Life isn’t so bad. There is lots of beauty around us; there are lots of joys and excitement to take part in. However, at the end of the day when we head back to our apartments or houses we are so alone. It is that moment when we lay our heads down on our pillows and the world becomes still. It is that moment when darkness fills the room and we are only left with our minds. It is in that moment when all you should be doing is falling asleep that you find yourself wide awake and thinking of anything and everything. It is those moments when we are not at rest, we are not content, and we are not satisfied. Hearing your heart beat out of your chest is not a sign that we are alive, but rather a sign that we are impatient, we are stressed, we are pressured, we are not calm and not at ease. What is it about the silence that drives us crazy? It’s like we are not comfortable in our own skin. We can’t stand to listen to ourselves breathe or think. We become scared and afraid of what will come next.
Life shouldn’t be so complicated and rather it is not. We tend to make it seem more difficult that it should be. Work, Eat, Sleep is a rather simple concept but somewhere in that simplicity we tend to create and cause drama because simple is not good enough for us, simple is boring, simple brings us back to calm and we can’t handle calm. So we have created this stressful highly competitive world around us so that somehow we feel more meaningful and feel as if we have a purpose. We create pressures around us so that we have something to compete or strive for. If something is not difficult to accomplish then reaching it will mean nothing. We want what we can not have. We drive ourselves crazy inside trying so hard to have what is not meant for us. We chase other people dreams, we chase fame, we chase money, we chase happiness, and we chase love all in an attempt to hold ownership over it. We do not value things but rather abuse them. We take for granted dreams we have accomplished, we take for granted people that love us, we take for granted our gifts and abilities, we take for granted our friends and family, and we take for granted God. It takes losing those things for us to finally see that we took it for granted. And then the cycle starts all over again. We chase after those things again and then once again take them for granted. Why is this the case? Why is it so hard to be thankful? Because we don’t like stability or simplicity. Once something becomes too stable or consistent in our lives we take it for granted. New Love, New jobs, new friends, new things intrigue us and we want it. So we tend to leave those we care about to try to fill this new desire in us. That new desire is only there because we allowed our flame to burn out. What is desire? What makes you desire something? Desire comes from a passion inside you to do something. Something that makes you smile, that makes you feel alive is a passion. Chasing after someone new is a desire because it makes you feel that rush again. It gives you an intense feeling. People get burned out doing the same things for so long. It’s just like we can not eat the same food every day of our lives. Even if that food was amazing and would taste amazing everyday, it wouldn’t matter. In our head we have decided that it will become old and not taste as good, when in reality is tastes the exact same on day 7 as it did on day 1. We are stubborn and need variety. Look at the world around us. There are millions of colors because white and black don’t satisfy us. There are millions of restaurants because we want to have choices so once again we feel in control. There are millions of brands because our culture is so swayed by the popular vote. One year skinny jeans are out and the next they are in. They look no different in than they did out but society has persuaded everyone that they are cool now. No wonder we are small minded and fail to have strong opinions. Because most of this world is based on conforming to what everyone else is doing? No one wants to be left out or be looked down upon. Who would? Having no friends is not fun. Being alone is one of the worst feelings out there. So we try so hard to hold on to something or someone so that we don’t have to feel empty. But sometimes what we are holding onto is not good for us. But what do we care, we are not alone right? Why is the divorce rate over 50%? Because many people don’t know what love is. They just want something to hold onto, they want to be loved. Many people settle because of the fear of loneliness. But in the end, they still end up alone and more miserable. They found a temporary fulfillment for their problem. This is true with everything. Drinking sometimes fills a void in us and makes us feel better for awhile. But after our 3 or 4 hours of fun we still wake up with our same problems and even a hangover. It only serves as a temporary fulfillment for our needs or wants.
We can not change it because this is how we are wired. This is how culture and society has changed us. We don’t know how to appreciate things or this life because we don’t ever slow down enough to look at it. We don’t even notice the color of the flowers outside, or the smiling stranger walking past you, or the hand of God upon you. There is so much that we really don’t see. We can’t see unless we slow down, stop, and look. We can’t do that because the silence and the calmness drive us crazy. We don’t know how to relax and enjoy life because we feel that enjoying life means doing more. Doing all these things before you die. When you die you won’t be able to look back on your life and say I am glad I did everything on my bucket list, or say I regret this and that. So why not focus on what will matter when we do die. And that is God. As simple as that seems to be………..it is still one of the hardest things to do. And why???? It’s that little word “simple”.

1-7-10 Thoughts

Why do we want to be miserable and hurt? Why do we chase after the things that are not good for us? Why do we want what we can not have? Because we want that challenge. We want to prove to ourselves that we are good enough when people tell us we are not. We enjoy the constant struggle because it feels worth it. They say fight for what you believe in. If you didnt have to fight for it, then you pry wouldnt believe it. We don't want someone to tell us how to feel or what we want. We want to rebel against everything because then it seems as if we are doing what we want and not what someone told us to do. And so when it comes to Love we are all fools.

1-5-10 Thoughts

God never leaves us....we leave him. God never pushes us away...we push him away. So the next time you want to blame God for your emptiness and hurt....think really hard about who closed the door.